csiluva

just thought i'd write this down I lay upon the earth mine head and find that no longer can I dwell in the present world of toilsome follies of which life is composed. As the shutters close and the pictures of the imagination roll a film of phantasmagorical images of wonder, the clock slows to a steady beat of a drum. A golden warmth shrouds mine delicate skin from the piercing daggers of autumn.  

This is my rap. The fan is tickin and clickin and whirling on the ceiling   In the big black darkness, and the only light is   Coming in from the street and I think   Maybe when the day comes I won’t wish I could just stay asleep I will find a way to somehow embrace the day   and be me And be free cuz the only choice you make is whether to be real or whether to be fake   you can embrace yourself or hate yourself   stand tall or hide behind a mask behind a guise that you’ve made with all the lies   just to hide reality but the gravity of situation   weighs down on you like you’re holdin up the universe   so you drink and

It’s fucking freezing…Seriously; turn on the damn heat already. I know this is Tennessee and we sometimes have 75 degree October days, but those days have 30 degree nights, and my toes, my toes that almost never get cold, that enjoy the comfort of my favorite sandals in the dead of winter, my toes feel like the inside of my empty freezer. I can feel the blood curdling and working hard to push through my body like my body tries to push through a crowd of girls trying to elicit me to vote for their friend for homecoming or my mind pushes tears back into my eyes while watching a sad movie, because I’m not sappy enough to let t